I have a lot of energy and when it doesn’t move around enough I can start to get antsy, frustrated. Using the brain for me isn’t enough, talking isn’t enough. All these things that can be done sitting down seem only to compact the energy, making ready for it explode or implode. When I felt the frustration creeping in today I heard myself say something peculiar. I told myself that I’m only human. “I’m only human” – what exactly does this mean? I know what it’s meant to mean, that its natural to get frustrated, to sometimes feel a bit antsy.
Usually, I try not to use phrases like this, phrases that have somehow slipped into my subconscious and which slip out again to pat me or others on the head – like a good little person. What struck me, as I stood in the kitchen, was the word ‘only’. I am only human. Only human? Only? This word is so doubly misleading in this sentence. Firstly, we are supposed to be one of the most evolved species on the planet. The rational minded thinkers. Conscious. So why when it comes to the emotions that we seemingly can’t control is the word human relegated to appear after the word only?
The second misconception, and maybe the most fundamental, is the totality this phrase implies. That all I am is human. Form and function. It says nothing of my soul, my spirit. I am not only human, I am, we all are, so much more. An accumulation, nay, an expression of energies present and parallel, of ancestors and future generations. Telling someone, myself included, that they are only human is like telling a tree it’s only wood.
So, my solution today? I am frustrated because something within me is out of sync, I know what that is, it’s that I haven’t moved enough today, yesterday, this week. To realign myself I can either try to bask in the dim light of my only humanness or, I can get up and move.
Sentences beginning ‘I am only…’ or ‘You are only…’ should be used with extreme caution. Make sure the limitations you are imposing are ones you have considered and truly desire to hold on to.